This poem is dedicated to a person who significantly impacted my life and my transformation.
She may not realize what she did to me, but I owe her gratitude. She pushed me to confront my greatest fears and heal my childhood trauma. Many years from now, when I look back, this period will stand out as the most profound, painful, and transformative chapter of my entire life. I never told her I loved her because the fear of the past was still haunting me, and I knew she didn’t feel the same. Yet, it was necessary and okay. I had to lose myself for one last time to find myself for the first time; to fully reconnect with who I am.
As I drew closer to her, I saw a part of me in her, the aching and empty soul yearning for something to complete. I wish she would never feel empty again. I wish she would find the one who loves her the way she needs to be loved. I wish she would find the missing piece and finally feel whole.
This poem was written through tears, a reflection of love for her and for myself.
Ode to Roekoe
You may go
And come back to me before my little cigar dies
-before the autumn leaves fall
I will wait here, loving you
Oh, baby, you can go
I’ll be here until you return
I will love you
I will love you like you needed them to love you
I understand if you don’t believe.
I will wait until you do
I will love you forever
I have never left you
Will I never do
You deserve to be loved